RAINBOW ABSTRACTS- abstracted REALITY

hey all!i've moved. hmm..haha..u'll find me if you want to!=))take care!
but b4 i leave............................................
GERM LOVES 29th!!!

-feel the vibrance

ORIENTATION IS FINALLY OVER!but blocks is drawing near..yea..germ is laggin..no time to blog..but yea..i must say reallirealli learnt a lot this orientation..

i jus wanna express my gratitude to a few people..
YVONNE: thanks for being there to listen to me and just being there for me those 3 days
BUDDY: thanks for giving me the countless hugs and wiping off my tears
JINGSHENG: hmm..thanks for making me laugh those few days although i know u urself were damn stressed up in every way
GUAN HENG: thanks for being there to always give me advice..and for that song!=)
HUIYEN AND SIHUI: thanks for trying to crash my clan time to gimme moral support
SHUENLIN: i duno if it was intentional..but thanks for showing up on the last day of my clan time..yea..although u din do much..but i was touched that u actually came down cuz i said it was damn stressful and all
TO MY DARLING TLs: thank you all of you for putting in so much effort in that 3 days. yea i know it was hard..but u guys did it..made a difference in ur fellow J1s orientation. you guys were always there to support me in whatever ways you could..thank you so much..

yeaa..reallirealli learnt a lot from being a clan leader too.yupp..i love AQUEO!
the clan that lives under the sea
the clan that is so hot that none can resist
the clan that's the best and going to win
AQUEO!we're cute and cool!LOVES

-feel the vibrance

hmmm..week hasn't been realli good. plus the fact that i jus like SAW THE NEWS SAYING THAT TKGS IS GONNA PUT UP THE WHOLE PIECE OF LAND FOR AUCTION OR STH?!?!?omg!wadz going on in this world man!!!now even my school wants to sell the building..so where are the poor students supposed to go??

realised i din blog bout CCACO dinner..alright.it was quite fun i must say..to be able to meet up with them once again. somehow i realli think that people really dun appreciate sth till we lose them. hmm...i kinda miss those days in council with these people. life now aint the same anymore. although i still have some of them with me in ICC..but the feeling's just NOT there. thanks to jiaying for that delicious muffin!!=))i think we took some random spastic photos..but we FORGOT to take a group one. how smart. oh well..as usual..i was like the MAIN topic of suan-ning..WADDE HELL! i dun get what those retards get outta disturbing me!!haha..especially that 2 GOH IDIOTS! GOH REN KAI AND GOH ZHEN YANG! u all BETTER watch out.wakkaka..and hahha...liew jing sheng!wahahah..thanks for all the ENTERTAINMENT that kept me laughin through the whole dinner..u MUST BE HONOURED OKAYS!=ppp.ohh well..we had a hard time eating cuz the chair was a bit squeezy..we appeared to be sitting damn close to each other..haha.BONDING time..wakkaa..nvmm..okays...CONCLUSION: i love CCACO!=)

hmmm..so many things going on in my mind. there's REALLY nothing to motivate me to continue studying everyday. its like..i'm really sick and tired of having to push myself so far. i just hope all the effort pays off in the end. if i could turn back time, i would seriously do a lot more things. guess one of the things i would have done would be to talk to YOU and YOU. i kinda regret not doing what i've not done. but what's done done. there's nothing i can do now except wait and see and HOPE.

i seriously dun understand you. why do you always have to appear at the wrong time? just as i was about to really forget everything. u jus had to remind me. so what's your purpose here? i've always wanted to know what's going on. i can't say you didn't give me a chance to, perhaps i didn't try hard enough. oh well. but how HOW am i supposed to even try to bring this topic up? at some point of time, i just felt like really forgetting this whole thing altogether. but how am i supposed to? i've tried many ways, but i can quite confidently say that none worked out. so what now? am i supposed to just pretend i NEVER KNEW YOU IN THIS LIFE? am i supposed to pretend that you NEVER EXISTED? if you don't tell me, i wouldn't know what you want. and i've always being trying to make things go YOUR way since the start. please don't do this to me.

-feel the vibrance

as much as the cny period was damn boring and all, but the fact that i spent so much time jus slacking around and crapping especially with cuzz..makes me not mind living in that kinda life. wednesday was the SUPER sian-ed day. shuenlin din come to school, and i was like so bored and all. booo...plus the fact that i got back my maths test..which i terribly flung?!?haha..hmm..i studied..i'm not kidding..i realli studied..just that i din push myself for that test cuz i jus recovered from the migraines and all..haii..but who is going to believe me?omg...yeaa...this whole week of school is realli damn tiring and siann..

studies, council, personal stuff..OMG!i'm just so gonna go bonkers..i'm sososo gonna die..rahhh..and i needed to talk so much during these few days...jus had to get some things outa me..hmm..yea..at this point..how i just wish kim and zhaoey could be in NY..cuz if they were..things would have been fine..perhaps with them around, i'm a different person. that's what i feel. anyway..a big thank you goes out to all who were willing to listen to me talk and talk and talk..ohh well..i duno how much you guys actually understood..but jus being there is enough!=))thanks!especially to guan heng sihui and huiyen..yeaa...thanks!!=))and to kim and zhaoey..if EVER you two toots are reading this..GERM REALLI MISS YOU LIKE NUTS!

ohh..book just like talked to me on msn..omg!i miss her so much!she asked if i still remeber her..ohh well..how can i ever not remember this adorable girl who only knows how to say 'what the hell?!' cute la she. and i wonder when will i see her again. hmmm..she said she was expecting me a few years ago..but i nv turned up..haii....nvm...i noe one day..i'll see her again!=))

-feel the vibrance

heyyheyy.haha..ohh and i forgot to like ELABORATE about the WONDERFUL experience i had watching the PROTEGE with my family. alright. FIRST UP!me mum amah brudder and ah kuen jiejie went into the cinema while the rest either went toilet or bought snacks. so papa and ah teoh came in together after us..and ah teoh shouted in teochew DAMN LOUDLY asking where was his seat..wakakka..so i just giggled..haha..den nvm..after a while..da guma and the rest came in...dendenden!da guma cannot find ah teoh(uhm her husband) and my amah shouted 'AH CHOO ARH!!!ITS HERE!ITS HERE!!!' in teochew la..haha..OMG..i jus din noe what to do at that moment..its like as if we owned the cinema..okok..and so the movie started..hahah...this show is bout some drug trafficking thingy..den the starting showed some woman injecting drugs into herself and my uncle said..'MUST BE MORPHIE..MORPHIE AHH..u noe not?MORPHIE..' ohh well actually he meant morphine.hahahha..den after that he ate popcorn damn loud throughout the whole movie lar!hahaha..and in the middle his phone rang..normal pple would quickly REACH FOR UR PHONE AND REJECT THE CALL..but my CUTE uncle looked at who it was..mind u it wasn't on silent mode..DEN HE ACTUALLY PICKED UP THE PHONE AND CONVERSED NORMALLY AND LOUDLY AND EVEN WISHED THE PERSON HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!i nearly like slapped him(jkjk)hahahha..den yea..he kept on saying things that he was thinking like how the female lead was prepared to die and all..WADEVA!hahahha..oh ya..then there was this part where the male lead got his uniform and his rank was a sergeant..den the atmosphere in the cinema at that point of time was such that everyone was damn quiet..its supposed to be a moment for the audience to feel happy for the actor..den he said DAMN loudly..'WAHHH SERGEANT NIA AH???LAO MAK CHAP YIU..' which means wah sergeant oni arh?and the second part means something like feel likecrying for him cuz its sucha low rank for all he did..wADEVA LA!!!hahhaa..and i couldnt take it and luffed..hahahha...yeaa...COOL RIGHT?!?

hmmm..school's starting tomorrow. blahh..back to reality. i really dun like it. well..i'm just glad that at least for this year, i feel a lil happier in nanyang. but ohh wells. there's still so many things that i aint that satisfied with and all..but yeaa..that's life. i really wanna get done with this phase of my life. i dun mind going to school jus to hang around with people. but i just dont want to be subjected to the kinda life i'm living now. being stressed about every single assignment i do. having to think about so many things, be it frens, homework, council and all. yea..council camp. i just hope everything will turn out well..at least i want the adhoc to be proud to be in this adhoc. i'm trying hard to make that happen. on top of that..i'm still taking piano next month. pls save me....blahhhh...sian to the max

i kinda feel damn lost about all that's happening. i know there's no point regretting what i've been doing so far. but if i were given a choice, i think i would not have chosen this path. at least i'll try my best to make things work out. ohh well..at the end of the day, i still get to choose what i want to do. but then again, i dun think i'll be able to do what i really want to do now. it'll be tough..for everyone, for me too. i'm just hoping for a miracle.

-feel the vibrance

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARR!!=))

alright. i somehow still feel that this yr's new year..i dun realli feel the atmosphere..and i think its kinda sad..haii..shall do a brief update on what has been happening recently..=)

VALENTINE'S DAY!

this is one of the most high valentine's ever..at least u can feel the atmosphere..=))thank you those who gave me those lil cards..and flowers and all..not forgetting MR GOH RENKAI!thanks for that cute spoongebob that made my day!=)and also to my darling kimmie and zhaoey..thank you so much the both of you. love u to bits..a pity we couldn't make time to meet up=(.but nvmm..i felt the love!hehh..

the spoongebob that made my day. THANKS RK!=))

trying to take an artist photo of the things i received..=p

this was wad i gave to spread my love..wakkakaka

friday

it was ny's cny celebration(okay.i felt quite bad i din even think of gg back to tk to visit the teachers..oh wells...haha..it was the PEOPLE as in students that i'm missing after all.heh).so yea..i'm part of the 'RIVER ANGPOW GROUP' and we're supposed to PERFORM in school b4 going for the real performance in the night.HAHAHA..lessons was quite crappy..cuz of the performance in skl..we were released earlier to rehearse..so i only had to attend 1h of maths..and 30min of econs..well..came out of the lt with sebas and pooh boon..for some reasons..everyone was luffin at pohboon..and i duno y...anyway..went to the canteen..ate some food..met some people..got suanned like no one's business..den finally reported to the hall to rehearse. oh well..was made to stand in front for the school's performance..wadde hell..i think i just made a fool out of myself in front of the whole school.haha..wadeva..hahaha...but had fun tho..altho everyone was laughing while trying to pretend they were SUPPORTING me..ahha..den went home after that..and met the rest at city hall in the evening..woohoo..while we were in that 'waiter and waitress' look-alike costume..we saw manymany pple..bronson, yichun, roy....oh ya..and it was raining.haha..so we had a hard time travelling from esplanade to river angpow. omg when we reached there..saw this woman..on pointe..on a guy's shoulder..and standin only with one leg.freaking hell..ahhahha..and 2 girls trying to balance each other with one's head on the other's..i asked amal and rk to try..but the DIAO-ED me..wakakka..the experience was one of a kind..but it wasn't that scary after all since the spotlight was SO DAMN strong that we couldn't see the pple off stage.hahahha..met dad and mum and had billy bombers for dinner!=)

SATURDAY

new year's eve..nothing much happened..had reunion dinner..

SUNDAY

first day of new year..went to dua gu's house early in the morning to eat. den proceeded to amah hse...hmmm..okayy..manymany pple were there!=)haha..but the atmosphere jus wasnt high like the previous..we played blackjack and in between..ahha..only when we played in between that there were some high parts..tho i felt the heartache when amah had to lose $120..=(..yea..was bored stiff lar!like can u imagine..around 7 of my cousins..we were all so bored..we all found a corner each in the house and slept through the afternoon..ahhha..oh yea.and so i decided to use my phone to take some photos...

merdin and me..with my mum trying to be in the photo.hehh

TODAY!!!

went to duagu's house in the morning to take some group and family photos.

papa mama and ME!

another pic!=)

the FAMILY photo!=))

alright. i was kinda happy and glad to have been able to spend some time just to accompany and play with chenyann..it's been a while since i've done that..and what made me feel happier was that i actually understood wad she wanted and she clapped..and asked me to clap along with her1=))my heart jus almost melted at that very moment..=))))

hmm..den supposed to go for kenneth's bdae party(but apparantly it wasn't a party..those tht went to his house din even get to see him..haha)but i went to buddy's house..had a lotta fun there!haha..=))here's some pictures..oh well..we played blackjack and in between and i was ACTING high with bdp watching JJ's concert..wakaka

the pool of money when we were playing in between

jian buddy. jian pengyou and me!=))

me. buddy. bdp (buddy pointed out a good point. bpd bent down so that we wun look short..but we ALL ended up bending down..wakakka)

me being VERY FACSINATED with buddy's STINGRAY!

she's biased lar!dun wanna give the stingray light..hahhaha=)

and the last GROUP PHOTO!!=)

hmm..after that went to tampines mall to meet the rest if my relatives..din manage to rush down to kenneth's house.heh..yea..and we all went to watch the movie 'men tu' OMG!its a DAMN nice show..PLS go and WATCH IT if u have the time..its DAMN WORTH IT!omg!the lil girl is DAMNDAMNDAMN cute..i'm falling in love with her lar!=))hahah..and went for prata after that!=))

alright..wanted to blog bout sth else..but i guess that's enough info for today's entry..heh..yupyup...i shall blog it next time then!=)))takecare pple!=)

-feel the vibrance

woohoo!if you're wondering why i haven't been updating..its cuz my com CRASHED..and also cuz i very busy...

alright..anyway..so many things happened these few weeks..firstly i had migraine till i nearly died..oh well..the stupid doctor gave the wrong medicine..diagnosed it as normal headache. siannnnnn....i KNEW it..but NO ONE believed..nvm..den anyway..i'm supposed to like stop taking chocolate caffeine citrus and cheese!wad de hell!ain't that practically everything?!?and it means i oni can drink like PLAIN WATER?!?!ahaha..nvm...i've been trying to abide to it...jia you.

there's so much work. i duno where to start. i duno HOW to start. i kena suan upside down by some TEACHERS. haiii...i'm studying!its jus that i duno how..and i dun understand!i trying here..can u gimme some encouragement?and stop comparing can!i'm me..not anyone else.=(

ohh yeaa...what's worse was that i got ATTACKED by a stupid BLACK BIRD.
i was studying in the canteen..concentrating..in the canteen there were less than 20 pple...i was alone on that particular table. DENDENDEN!THE STUPID BIRD FLEW INTO ME!!!!!!and i din know wad was it..i felt the wind from its flapping wings..haha..yeaa..den i turned ard..saw it on the floor..hahha..like dead..haha..i wanted to touch it and it flew away.urgh!and i got comments from those IDIOTIC GUYS LIKE...'maybe u look like a scarecrow, u're so insignificant that even the bird din realise ur presence.' ARGH!!and all those..'ehh ok not?' and when i said yarr..they replied 'i meant the bird'.URGH!!!and MR TONNY LIM LAUGH LIKE DUNO WHAT WHEN HE HEARD LAR!!!!!and cuz i said everyone is supposed to like ask me if i'm alright instead of the bird..den he said..so u mean if u bang into a tree, i hafta ask if the tree's alright?!ARHHHHHHHHHHHH..haha..okies..nvm...its all OVER.(i bet its the uniform..)

hmmm...and ohh..can people just gimme a break and stop commenting on every single move i make in my life?cuz like i said. its MY LIFE. and if u're not happy wiith what i'm doing..please come foward to tell me?dun like keep it to urself?cuz i'll never know how u're feeling?and u'll jus suffer with what u consider my f-up attitude?!?yea....if u're realli that pissed off with me that u cant stand me anymore, den yea..i suggest u come and tell me. =)

-feel the vibrance